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The Shake by Mel Nicolai

Review: “The Shake” reminded me of some of Anne Rice’s vampire series in that the author chose to include long passages describing the intimate details of becoming and learning to “live” as a vampire, their individual tastes, etc. but considering this has been done so many times before, this wasn’t very compelling for me and I was hoping for someone out of the ordinary. For lovers of any and all things vampire, that may be a plus, but in the case of historical events or facts, sometimes they seemed like events the author simply wished to include, but I didn’t really see exactly how they added to the whole of the story. Overall, I found “The Shake” to be another author’s take on the explanation of vampires, how they came to be, and how they can overcome their inherent drawbacks. Rather like the minute details included of Sacramento and California, like street names, etc….nice, but truly necessary?  Entirely the reader’s choice.

A twist of mystery, a vampire “cause”, a number of players introduced and expounded upon from the main character’s view, Shake, who I found far less compelling or interesting than most of the secondaries like Mio and Karla. Even ordinary people can have something unique about them, something that makes you want to learn more about them. That’s how we’re seduced, make associations for friend, lovers, or ourselves, how we become attached. I searched for that with Shake, yet it eluded me. From the tone and direction of the tale’s end, there may be forthcoming titles, perhaps in a series, from this author about “Shake” and his fellow undead and human friends and followers.


Description: Accidentally turned a century ago, the vampire who calls himself
“Shake” lives a life of inconspicuous suburban anonymity. His driver, Karla (ex-bartender, ex-part-time hooker), is the only human with whom he has regular contact. The only other vampire whose company he tolerates is that of the immensely wealthy and mysteriously powerful Mio Nagaishi. Cautious and prudent, he is, as Mio describes him, “like a wild animal sitting quietly in a room, patiently waiting for an excuse to leap out the window.” That excuse comes when he discovers an envelope in the closet of his latest blood donor.

The envelope contains news clippings and documents related to her husband’s unsolved murder. In itself, nothing that would normally interest a vampire. But among the documents is a photo of a man Shake has had an interest in for some time. On the back of the photo, the woman has written the word “BLOODSUCKER.” The coincidence is like a window, and Shake leaps though it. And thus begins a journey that will lead him to a unexpected confrontation with his own past. A quest for meaning washed in blood and violence, THE SHAKE is unlike any vampire novel you’ve ever read.


Published: October 2, 2010

Publisher:  Amazon Kindle by author

Available at Amazon, eletronically and in print.

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True of Blood by Bonnie Lamer

Review: It seems to be a popular premise in young adult fiction but the idea continues to find its inventory of readers: ‘young hero or heroine turns a magical age and their special powers are revealed and they must go forth to save the world.’ Or some variation on that theme. Some are shocked, some sensed the possibility all along, others are hurt or angry their parents lied to them about their heritage and of course, need time to come to terms with the magnitude of their new mission when they just want to be regular teens.

I had a difficult decision to make with this work, as I considered whether to read it from an adult’s angle simply as a story in and of itself, or try to look at it from a young person’s perspective and how it might be viewed. To me, just because a book is specifically geared towards a certain age group doesn’t mean it is less well written. Though I don’t look usually read books specifically labeled for young adults, I’ve read very many where the characters were of those ages. I enjoy any author who shows a certain proficiency of writing skills no matter the genre, age group or anything else.

For me there was just too big a jump from the character’s behavior as first presented, which I enjoyed, an intelligent young woman, to when magical beings, heavy on mythical and legend terms appear, and though she’s been thoroughly briefed by a parent on her secret history revealed, she completely cannot believe anything they say and thing it all a game. Among other things, including the stereotypical behavior of far too many fantasy female characters who use wise-cracks and insultory dialogue supposedly to should how feisty and spirited they are. One of the main reasons I’m really selective in my fantasy choices these days though it’s by far my traditional favorite is I’ve never really cared for that character type.

If one is using a common theme I think it’s crucial to make your characters themselves unique in some way and likeable, or at least admirable. The characterization has to engage the reader so readers remain interested in the plot development. Maybe it was the irony the author wished to show, but having Xandra guilty of the same self-absorbed and centred behavior she accuses Kallen of, just really made it seemed like her social I.Q. dropped several levels after she found out about her heritage. From a nice, reasonable young woman she turns into a wise-cracker, toggling between acerbic and petulant remarks, and for me too often behaved like a hard-headed jerk.

The romance that then develops between Xandra and Kallen was a little problematic for me.  I’ve never understood how someone is still attracted to a person who is insulting, mean-spirited towards you and acts like they hate your guts, yet suddenly you’re kissing. Again, that’s a popular formula some people do think of as de rigeur to be a “true” romance.

I felt the writer had a clear direction in which they wished their story and characters to go. “True of Blood” was very descriptive and packed with fairies, Pooka, and various other creatures, magic, sudden realizations, dire warnings and the possibility of “happy ever after’s.” Because of some suggestive sexual situations I would recommend it more for older teens +16 or adults.

Description: “I have a television so I know what a family is supposed to look like but mine is nothing like that. To begin with, both my parents are dead. Not the kind of dead where you bury them in the ground, say some nice words, cry a lot and then never see them again. Nope, when they died they refused to go into the light; or whatever it is you’re supposed to do when you die. Instead, they came back home. As ghosts. Have you ever been sent to your room by a parent who has no corporeal form? I have and it sucks…”

Xandra Illuminata Smith has lived for the last three years with ghosts as parents but her life gets even stranger after her seventeenth birthday when she finds out that her mother is actually a Witch in hiding and her biological father, whom she knew nothing about, is a Fairy and King of the Fae realm.

Xandra is the first Witch Fairy to be born in thousands of years for very good reason. No one should be able to control that much magic and Xandra was never meant to be born at all but her mother has manged to keep her hidden away until now.

The Witches want her dead and the Fairies want her blood, for only her blood will reopen the gateway to the Fae realm and allow them back into this realm to take revenge on humans and Witches alike for having banished them hundreds of years ago.

Xandra has very little time to learn how to use her powerful Witch and Fairy magic that has been bound since her birth while running from the Fairies who managed to jump realms and want to take her blood to set the others free. She needs someone to teach her and her parents enlist the help of one powerful Fairy who claims to want to keep the realms closed to each other. He will help keep her safe and alive as she learns, at least that’s what he says…

Published: April 15, 2011

Publisher: Hugo Klam

Please visit author website for availabilities http://bonnielamer.blogspot.com/

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Interview & Review of Robert Dunbar’s “Willy”

Review: At a home for troubled youths, a young man struggling with his own emotions becomes integrally involved with Willy, another young student with problems of his own, both internally and externally, past and present. I found the narrative to be admirably in character at all times, yet the style didn’t work for me. For me it very difficult to move through the book though certain descriptions and ideas did stand out, and I understood the method and reason behind the choice.

The language used was very visual, often intense yet believable in an ordinary way so that when you realize the suspense has built, it’s almost a surprise. You’re surrounded, and find yourself entirely immersed in the drama the main character is experiencing.

Personally, for the homo-erotic content some readers or reviewers mentioned, I must be eclectic or very open-minded or it’s a Berliner thing, but the interaction that happened seemed entirely normal to me (that’s a good thing) and representative of adolescent exploration that simply isn’t often admitted by those who may feel threatened by the spectrum of sexuality after they become adults. For the dark psychological aspects, perhaps because I’m a Psychology major and have worked with severely troubled children and adolescents in the past, the story didn’t seem overly heavy or dark to me. Seen too many things far worse.

I found “Willy” to have a unique voice and perspective that certainly would appeal to many readers.

Description: In an isolated school for boys with emotional problems, a disturbed adolescent struggles against a mire of superstition and oppression. Then he meets Willy, and the other boy – charismatic and strange – saves him … or damns him. WILLY, an atmospheric novel of suspense by the author of THE PINES, THE SHORE and MARTYRS & MONSTERS, becomes both an evocation of painful growth and a dark psychological thriller.

Paperback, 272 pages
Published January 24th 2011 by Uninvited Books
ISBN13: 9780983045724
Source: Author
For availibility of work, please visit Robert Dunbar’s website http://www.dunbarauthor.com/


Robert Dunbar in his own words:

What genre do you write? Why do you write the stories that you write?

I’ve written a lot of things, everything from – you should pardon the expression – straight literary fiction to suspense and science fiction, though primarily of course I’m known as a horror writer. Personally, I prefer the term dark fiction, because it feels so much less restrictive. As for why I write what I do … I’m not at all sure how to answer that. An artist’s work is like a fingerprint – each one is distinctive. Critics are always comparing my work to that of other writers, often with hilarious results. I hear ‘Stephen King’ a lot, which always cracks me up. I mean, I know it’s meant kindly, but I can’t even think of another author with whom I have less in common. And sometimes these comparisons are extremely flattering, if a bit puzzling. Just this year, I’ve gotten everything from J. D. Salinger to Flannery O’Connor. Personally, I don’t think I write like anyone else … which is as it should be.

 What do you like to do when you’re not writing?

When am I not writing?

 Where do you hang out online?

These days, my favorite virtual hangout is probably the Literary Horror group at Goodreads – running that has been very stimulating. It attracts a very smart, very engaged group of people, lots of teachers and librarians and writers. (Okay, so the writers may not be as smart of all that: we do our best.) My personal site remains www.DunbarAuthor.com, but I’ve now got a fan page set up on Facebook for Uninvited Books, and that’s also been great fun.

 What would you like readers to know about you the individual?

Dunbar the person as opposed to Dunbar the writer? I don’t think I can make that distinction. It’s all so intimate, all that passion and discipline. How could it not be? Writing is an identity issue, not an occupational one. (I’ve always told aspiring writers that if they can do anything else they should. This is way too hard a life for anybody with a choice.) Do you understand what I mean? This isn’t just my life, it’s me, all of me, and whatever pride I take in my work is ultimately beside the point.

My books have often annoyed the hell out of populist reviewers, but a more literary crowd has always praised me in the most amazing ways. (What was it Churchill said about having enemies? That it proved you stood for something?) Truly, the accolades can be quite alarming, not that I don’t love them. What writer isn’t thrilled at finding words like “masterpiece” and “superb” in a review? But some of the most meaningful feedback has been from readers, you know, comments online or at lectures and signings, that sort of thing. People often voice their astonishment at how much sheer humanity my underclass and minority characters possess, which I normally interpret as a sad comment on the usual stereotypes. (The horror genre is only slowly emerging from a long reactionary period.) Recently, I heard from a reader who marveled that I write about gay characters who seem like regular human beings. That really moved me. And, yes, I think that indicates a lot about what kind of a writer I am … and what sort of a person.

No, the question wasn’t designed to make a distinction, as I believe every individual can be such a variety of things, there is no reason for writer or writing to make them specifically different from others. As I live and move among those search for higher and wider gestalts of thought and being, yes, I understand what you mean.

“write about gay characters who seem like regular human beings”

I found that a very interesting statement, both with critique and admiration for the expression. I would have to say that is positive on the person’s part, though in a homo-ignorant kind of way, and in general for your writing, a plus, as I’ve not seen your work in general added to “m/m fiction” or gay fiction lists. I’ve experienced the fact far too many readers don’t seem to be able to differentiate between fiction that contains real gay situations and characters from those that are entirely fictitious or make gay characters into caricatures. So that the boundaries of gays as “regular human beings” has become blurred, when that is what we are anyway.


Your Writing Process


Why do you write?

For the same reason I breathe. Sorry – that sounds so pretentious. It’s the truth though. How else could I live?

It doesn’t sound pretentious to me in the slightest, but merely honest. But then, where I’m from, we just tell it like it is.

 Do you have any advice for aspiring writers?

Read. You wouldn’t think that would be such a radical suggestion, would you? Sadly, it seems to be. So many “writers” apparently just skip that whole business of learning their craft. I can’t really think of any other discipline where this happens so often. Not in music. Nor dance. In art class, they begin by teaching you to see. You study the masters. You learn perspective and anatomy and composition, and only then do you begin to paint. But pretty much anybody can click on “spell check.”

 Do you track work count or write a certain number of hours per day?

I work as many hours a day as I can. Beyond that, no, I don’t count paragraphs or pages. But it’s always a battle. Everything in life makes demands on your time, your strength, your passion, and you have to resist. Your will becomes a machete for hacking away all the inessentials, so that you can carve out a space for yourself, for your life, your real life, and you must protect that fiercely. The battle never ends.


Your Books


How many books have you written? Which is your favorite?

There are four right now, and several others in the works. My favorite? Tough call. Probably the best known is still THE PINES, which continues to attract devotees. It’s always a thrill to hear it referred to as a “modern classic.” But in many ways, I prefer THE SHORE. (It has a smaller but – if anything – more rabidly intense group of admirers.) But WILLY and MARTYRS & MONSTERS are the ones closest to my heart, probably because of the autobiographical aspects – WILLY most of all.

 Do you outline your books or just start writing?

All writers outline … even the ones who don’t know they’re doing it. Somewhere inside there’s a blueprint. Personally, I need to create that framework, or else the details of a book just proliferate out of control. The trick is – having created the thing – to ignore it, not to let it inhibit the process. What dancers call flow, you know, when it’s just coming through you … when you don’t even have to think about it. You have to trust your instincts enough to know when to let go.

Well, I’ll have to disagree with you there, but maybe because I don’t care for generalizations involving an infinite “all.” I don’t online some of my work, it comes as it wishes.

 How does it feel to hold a book that has your name on the cover?  What is your favorite cover of all your paperbacks?

Now you’ve really hit a nerve: this used to make me cringe. The original cover for THE PINES had a bloody stump on the cover, and the gore was actually embossed. But that book has had so many editions that I’ve lost track. Through the years, I’ve had good covers and bad ones. Even some generic ones. But all the titles from Uninvited Books, like – WILLY – feature sophisticated, elegant artwork by Chas Hendricksen … who happens to be the love of my life. (Just wait till you see the cover for the new edition of MARTYRS & MONSTERS that’s about to come out.) I am a very lucky writer. People can check out Chas’ cover designs at www.UninvitedBooks.com.


Your Characters


Do you tend to base your characters on real people or are they totally from your imagination?

Those are not mutually exclusive options. I’ve had lengthy relationships with people who turned out to be largely imaginary. Most of my fictional characters are far more substantial.

I had to smile. Those weren’t intended to be, but rather a point from which the author could expand upon.

 Is it hard coming up with names for your characters?

No, they tell me who they are.

 Have any of your characters ever haunted your dreams or woken you up during the night demanding attention?

All of them.

 Is there a character from one of your books that resonates deeply with you?

So many. A particular one? There’s the nameless narrator of WILLY of course. Beyond that … how about two? There’s a pair of boys in MARTYRS & MONSTERS – Timmy and Conrad – who have always just broken my heart, maybe because of the way they constantly hurt each other. They’re junkies. Timmy hustles. Con is a thug. These kids have “doomed” written all over them. But they’re in love. And part of me wants so desperately to believe that this could save them. I often feel them inside me, those two, and they turn up in my dreams a lot.

A huge thank you to Robert Dunbar for taking the time to reply to this set of interview questions, and for his patience regarding my intercontinental move that forced me to delay posting his review and interview, the latter of which was completed by him several weeks ago.

Author Bio:

Robert Dunbar is the author of the supernatural thrillers THE PINES and THE SHORE, both of which garnered profoundly postive reviews. He is also the author of MARTYRS & MONSTERS — a collection of his short fiction — and a new dark literary novel WILLY. He has been called “the catalyst for the new literary movement in horror” and “one of the saviors of contemporary dark fiction.”

Dunbar has written for television and radio as well as for numerous newspapers and magazines. His plays and poetry have won awards, and his short fiction has been widely anthologized.


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Dangerous Times by Phillip Frey

Review: The descriptions of the character’s driving, streets, turns and buildings, or the settings in which he finds himself helps set the tone and mood of the story. Frank Moore is direct and brutal, yet I found him believable and even sympathetic to a degree because he does some of the acts that might cross our minds to do: kill the unrepentant druggie and rid the world of one more useless drain on society. Sometimes the detachment left me drifting, or the seeming randomness of thought, but it was all of a piece. It was as if the story itself was a character with clear personality, a certain style of movement and purpose. Frank Moore, his wife, the other players were puppets on a stage.

I found “Dangerous Times” to be both intriguing, for it’s straightforward and direct style of narration that fit the story to a tee; and terrific in it’s intangible build of suspense. I confess I was dismayed a bit by the length, which was 350 pages in .pdf format, but this was accounted for by the 1.5 spacing and Courier font. Not an easy one for eyes, but again, it did seem to fit the “Dangerous Times,” making for outstanding perspective.

For lovers of crime thrillers and suspense novels written in a solid, purposeful voice, “Dangerous Times” is a winner. It’s dark and gritty, yet still touched by flashes of brillance told in a unique voice. Once it grabs you, it doesn’t let you go. As it’s short description states: “this book is not for the squeamish. It begins as a creepy slow burner that leads to sex, violence, murder, and betrayal.”

Description: Frank Moore is a misanthrope with a hellish plan, a malevolent antagonist so compelling that the reader will want Frank to succeed, until the unexpected occurs. After a frustrating search he has found his look-alike, a close-enough double: John Kirk. Auto mechanic John Kirk leads a troublesome life in San Pedro, common troubles that escalate to the dreadful when Frank Moore comes to town.

Published: September 28, 2010

Published by: Phillip Frey

ISBN13: 294001111792

Source: Author

Buy Link: Smashwords

Author Bio:

Phillip Frey grew up in Cleveland, Ohio, where he performed as a child actor at The Cleveland Playhouse. The day after he graduated high school he moved to Los Angeles and attended Los Angeles City College. Enrolled in their Theatre Arts Department, Phillip performed in many of their plays while also performing in local theater. He then moved to New York, where he performed with The New York Shakespeare Festival, followed by The Repertory Theatre of Lincoln Center. With a change of interest Phillip wrote, directed, and edited 3 short films, all of which had international showings, including The New York Film Festival. With yet another change of interest he returned to Los Angeles to become a produced screenwriter. “Dangerous Times” is Phillip Frey’s first novel.

Website: http://phillipkafka.blogspot.com/


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Stoned Honor by Faith Folau

Review: An authentic voice using, what I’ve come to understand as the local “cant,” Stoned Honor is one woman’s path to finding herself after escape from a life of pain, sometimes self-inflicted, but more often because of circumstance or at the hands of others. From a beginning of indigenous Islander birth, through a history of prostitution, drugs, and violence, this memoir contains the type of reflections that can be dangerous in that perpetrators don’t want their wrongdoings revealed, but some things must come to the light. They must be revealed, and as it’s Faith Folau’s confession of sorts, it is hers to tell.

First off I’ll say her and hers, woman throughout, because that’s how it should be. Some people, perhaps simply by definition, insist on using words like transgender, transsexual, transwoman in placement of those words. I believe part of the issues that continue to promote separatism based on sexuality is because some people separate others into a category of their own choosing irregardless of the person’s wishes. Certainly, they might be applicable descriptive terms, to be sure, but that is not the essence of the person themselves.

The family photos were a nice touch and helped me immerse myself a little more as they created a deeper sense of connection. Faith’s early days reminded me of my family, who are Native American, and after coming into the city from a very “indigenous” way of life in the mountains, the unique hardships and vices of city life nearly destroyed a generation and continue to be problematic.

I identified with so much of Faith’s story: the avoiding of family gatherings because people like to remember and laugh at the bad, embarassing things when you were young, the inevitable arguments and fights that might occur, of how the “secret sins” over the years cause rifts that are sometimes never healed because the other party nurses their venom. For the spiritual aspects of the memoir, I had to take them as part of the whole, part of the person writing them though they are quite opposite to my own beliefs and views of Christianity.

“Stoned Honor” is special. It is honesty and defiance told in a forthright, sincere tone that moves back and forth along Faith’s personal timeline. Although my life had a different slant, I could well understand Faith’s expression, the necessity of dual or triple “faces”, how you act, what you say, what you are, just to survive. I also know the “zero hour” when you have to leave all of that behind, burn it away or as a “brittle piece of paper to crush in the hand,” give it to the winds. This book, this personal revelation is very much an example of when you have to look pass the differences in wording and spelling into the “heart of the matter” to read what the author is trying to share. I know personally how hard it can be to do so, but also how very important is for the body, mind and soul to achieve true freedom from the past.

Description: I FEEL NO PAIN Here is the outcome for the future, because yesterday I was bitter, today I’m grown. The past should never be brought to the light of day, but because I was writing a book about my life I decided to put all the things that had hard memory, like it was the day it had happened. It was in consideration to be all brought back into this book. If you think that I feel the same way I do, as you read, I don’t. I hold now weight of life’s problems in my heart.

Genre: Memoir

Published in print and ebook formats at Lulu.com.

Published: 4 January 2011

Source: Self-purchase

From the Author

As a transsexual women, we have been thourgh a lot. Especially born and raised on Hawaii, we are last and sometimes not even cared about. I also talk about religion, sex, employment, etc.

Reading my journey is like reading about every transsexual women in the Islands. I can’t say fully because everyone is different, and go through life on different roads. But I can speak for most. Being sexual slaves just to survive. Read more to find out more.

Interview with Ms. Folau

Greetings, today I am interviewing Faith Folau, a native Hawaiian, part-time dominatrix and author of the memoir “Stoned Honor”. It is the story of one transgender woman’s goal to stamp out pain and replace it will happiness. It is a past many of us have shared, and a healing journey we walk daily.  Available in hardcover, paperback and electronic file, published 4 January 2011.

 What was your first published work? When was it written and/or published?

My first book ever was ‘The beginning to an end of a “Bad girl.’  It was published on December 20 2010, but within a week later, I pulled it from being sold.  I revised it because of a privacy violation, and then shortly after the book had a new title and a new cover jacket:“Stoned Honor.”

At what age did you develop an interest in writing? Did you ever ask or let your parents read your work?  I ask that because as an eleven year old I read some of my poetry for my parents and received a very negative response. I didn’t let anyone else read my work for almost twenty years.

I started to write when I was 11 years old also. My early work was songs and poems that I kept to myself. I was afraid to show anyone because they might make fun of me.  Especially the love songs that I used to write, I did not want anyone to see them. Today I have no idea where all those writings are.  So no, my parents didn’t ask or see my writings.

After that, I started a diary and then blogs on the internet.  I would watch music awards on TV and later write my thoughts on the awards shows, and post them onto the internet on forums.
What or who were some of the bands and you liked best?

In the 90’s I listened to Mary J. Blige, Faith Evans, Salt’n’Pepa, Lil’Kim, Foxy Brown and many others who are not around any more.

Do you have a specific genre in which you write? What are some of your themes?

Well, when I write I don’t really think of a genre. I just start writing from my experience, the things that I went and am still going through.  I guess you can say I write fiction in the biography genre.  This year I am going to push my writing towards erotica.  I will for now stick to what I know, and that is memoirs and erotica.

How would you describe your writing style? To whom would you compare your work?

My writing style comes rolling right off the top of my brain.  Therefore, if I have a writing style it would be a personal style.  A personal style from words of the brains, of me.  A style of words everyone can understand.  As for comparing my written words to someone, there would be no one. I am the narrator.

Your memoir, Stoned Honor, is available now, would you tell us what it’s about?

Before I was a bad girl. I did what I had to do to survive in the streets of Hawaii.  I grew up in church so I knew that there was a higher power out there that I believed in.  However, discrimination all over our Island forced me into picking a career, an industry that involved nude modelling.  After all that, I chose to hold my self higher than nude modelling and sought God for help.

My goal was stay alive and keep positive in my life. It worked. I found many answers in life that took me so long to find out, just simply by going the spiritual route.  In my book, I explain how I kept positive things around me and because of it, I was able to write and publish my book in 30 days.

Please tell us a little more about your background, and what your philosophy of life means.

Growing up in a very strict Hawaiian family that was poor to the bone.  Most times hunting on the land for food and fishing in the oceans was necessary in order to keep from starving.  Going to school and church was a high demand growing up, and if you did not attend, you would be punished.  Punishment from a very abusive grandfather who thought that hard-core beatings was a form of talk.

Everyone has enemies but it’s your job not to acknowledge them with the same feed back they give you, instead show them love and kindness. Because I have dealt with envy and competition all of my life.  As TS (transsexual) women there are other transgender out there that feel the need to compete with everyone, and in my case, it almost turned into a violent situation.  In addition, I was able to save my self from hurt, harm and danger by praying and being three steps ahead of jealousy.

I was able to save my self from suicide from a very abusive father.  My father was a local boxer and taking his fist full force to my face many times since the 3rd grade made me think about suicide.  Everyone was afraid of him so they could not help me, not my mother and not my siblings.  My mother was much brained washed from my father making her think that it was ok to try to convert me with abuse.  He also told her that if I do not change my girly ways he would leave.  Therefore, she let him abuse me, so that her children would have a father around.

In addition, all of this had led to alcohol abuse, divorce, adultery, and violence in the family.  I talk about this in the chapter “Family Affair”, in Stoned Honor.

Now please understand that I do not go into self-pity, I want to share my stories because I know there are people out there going through the same things.  I gave you my stories, and I gave you solutions on what and how to knock out all these negative situations before you do something crazy to yourself.  If it has helped me, I hope my words can help other as well, kids and adult.

I thank you for sharing your experiences. I, in no way, feel it is self-pity of any kind, but rather a courageous declaration. As a survivor of many abuses myself, I know how hard it can be to reach the point to speak of it, and how much harder it is to relive it in order to write a memoir and remain strong.

As a person who survived multiple suicide attempts when I was younger, I love your message of speaking about yourself, from your wisdom, in order to help those suffering through similar feelings. Like you, it is a natural feeling for me to say of what helped me, and to hope it might help others.

Do you currently have any writing projects or works in progress?

I feel like stoned honor was an inspirational and positive book.  Now I am going to talk about my experiences with a more adult genre. I would say this next book is more than erotica, but at the same time, I want to keep this next book in a positive light.  As well as continuing to write articles of everyday life on my blogs.

I wish you good luck with that. I believe erotica, whether fiction or a revealing of personal occurrences can help provide a window into another person’s mind and life which can help others. In particular, understanding that you are a transgender woman, I believe your work would help shed very important light on people who continue to be somewhat misunderstood by others.

You are also an independent publishing author. What made you publish independently versus publishing with a traditional house?

With Stoned Honor I went independent because I do not think you need a book contract to get your words out there for the world to read.  In addition, I wanted Stoned Honor to be an e-book mainly because it is a short book, about 60 pages.  I could not really go into every topic, as I wanted to, because even though Hawaii is a part of the United States, we still have our own laws.  I had to really watch what I was putting in the book because Hawaiian families have their own beliefs, and if I took it far, I would face either death or being abandoned my family.   In addition, that is how the story came about, because in some races if a women talks about sexuality or experiences it, she would get stoned to death.  In addition, the “honor” part (of the title) came because if stoning happened to me, I would take it in honor.

As for my next book, I want this one to be published with a house.  It is going to be 300 to 400 pages long.  However, I am not going to wait for a house to pick me up, if I have to than I am going to publish it myself.

Telling one’s own story, as I am working at through my memoir “The Boys Who Died”, can very well bring retribution from one’s tribe or people. In my tribe, stoning to death is still utilized also. Being shunned and abandoned, not able to return to your home on pain of death, is still applicable for some “wrongdoing”, which can include aspects of sexuality which one has no control over.

Where are some of the places we can find you online?

Like most people, I am on Facebook at Faith Folau.  Find me on twitter @ reality_blogs.  My website www.faithfolau.webs.com, and my blog spot http://faithfolau.blogspot.com/ where all my articles can be found.  I also have my mistress website at www.tskimiko.webs.com .

Please visit Queer Magazine Online to see the first and full posting of Faith’s review.

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